Friday, November 13, 2009
1:07 AM
What is this?
I can't seem to take my mind off it.
I am holding it back like I used to, running away from it.
Bury it within the depth, hoping that it will never re-surface again.
Is this karma?
I am losing my mind.
I can't breathe, it's such an intoxicating scent.
Thursday, November 05, 2009
2:59 AM
I don't know but I really can't stand it.
Maybe it just wasn't very important to that guy, but it's getting on my nerves.
Allow me to correct that. It's more like getting on my nerves again!
Oh god. Go and visit the dentist for god's sake.
Monday, October 19, 2009
1:59 AM
Sunday morning was really unlucky.
First, I dropped my phone and it smashed the angel on the handphone chain. Only managed to recover some parts of the angel. One of the wings was lost. But luckily, Meiling is making me a new one. =)
Just right before noon, a Filipino lady came in to buy some yogurt. Below is what I thought happened.
She ordered her yogurt and the toppings she wanted. However, I thought I heard her say something about strawberry sauce. She was rather soft so I didn't manage to catch the first few words. Assuming that she wanted strawberry sauce instead of strawberries, I went ahead to make her a new cup of yogurt. This was when she started questioning why I was making a new one. Tried to explain that since she wanted strawberry sauce instead of strawberries, I was going to make her a new one. She insisted that she said strawberry sauce over the yogurt and not what I assumed. Asking why I was so unhappy about it (I don't even know what she was referring to) when I wasn't and said that she is paying for it and not getting it free.
I APOLOGISED for the misunderstanding but the next moment, she started insulting me. Accusing me of pulling a long face and that if I didn't want to work, I could just quit. I really have to emphasise that I was smiling and greeting her when she came into the shop, not what she accused me of. Shocked at all the personal attacks she was making, I felt really insulted. However, being in the service line, I couldn't argue back. I simply just smiled back at her.
I think because I smiled back and didn't behave the way she expected me to (insult her). Next, she started accusing me of not paying attentation to her, threatened to complain to Sam and started to show off. Saying in a very sarcastic manner, that I should be like her, get a rich husband, be a housewife, drive a sports car and not needing to work. (Eh hello? I am 19 and you are what? At least 30? AND I am working part time because I don't want to waste time slacking at home during the holidays.) As she continued to insult me, Fen came into the shop and the lady repeated all she said previously but it was worse this time round.
She asked for my name and how long I have been working here. Fact is I have been here for more than a year and this is the first time I am getting such things. She smirked when I said I was here for a year. She said she felt sorry for me (like wth?) having to be here for a year and that I should quit my job (hello?? I am working part time? And my pay is pretty good for a part timer). She probably thought I was a full time staff. I continue to smile and not make any comments, which probably angered her even more and continued with her insults.
BUT the next comment that she made was what really got on my nerves. She said that I just need to make sure my PARENTS can afford to take care of me because I am not as pretty as she is (HUH? Where is the link? AND I think she ISN'T PRETTY AT ALL). I am actually pretty fine with personal insults but when you drag my parents into the insults, it just makes my blood boil. Fen who just signed in was standing beside me and clearly shocked when she heard the insults and comments that the lady was making. I couldn't stand it and ask Fen in chinese to take over at the cashier.
She had 2 cups of yogurt. I packed 1 cup and asked if she wanted to pack the other. She crazily shouted at the two of us and said that she doesn't need it to be packed as she would be eating it as she drives her sports car (she was emphasising on the brand and stuffs), afterwhich she threw the money on the counter instead of handing it to Fen. Fen, probably still yet to recover from the shock, didn't react the way the lady thought Fen would (to throw the change on the counter). I even said thank you and good bye to the lady. Guess she was hopping mad and stormed out of the shop.
The moment she got to a distance away from the shop, Fen recovered and started to scold vulgarites. I too scolded vulgarites (if you know me well, me using vulgarites is pretty rare). Once the lady was out of sight, I couldn't take it any longer and broke down (me crying when someone is around is even more rare then me using vulgarites).
I have Filipinos friends and customers and NONE behaved the way she did. She was really unreasonable, sarcastic and barbaric. My parents don't even scold me this way and who does she think she is to scold and insult me this way. I have NEVER felt so insulted in my life.
Monday, October 12, 2009
12:10 AM
I've been sick for a week.
Its getting really irritating.
My head hurts, can't hear properly and to make things worse, my throat hurts!
I can't even sleep in peace. Kept waking up in the middle of the night, only to fall asleep again 1 - 2 hrs later.
Saturday, October 03, 2009
7:19 AM
I AM REALLY BORED!
As you can see, it's 7 am in the morning and I not slept.
BOOOO...
Guess I will be posting my FYP stuff later.
Seriously need to sleep, luckily work starts at 6..
BUT, Yuefen is covering for Li Jing in the morning and Michelle is on leave due to test.
OMG... Uncle Sam say SHOULD be coming today and but he also has to get someone else to come. Else I will die working and I really don't want to close with Sam. >.>
5:42 AM
没事时的胡思乱想，总会想到一些会让自己觉得恶心的事。
不然就是想起几年前的自己。
曾经单纯过的自己，无知的自己和那个傻得可笑的自己。
还有那个自以为是的自己。
想到这里，总会不知不觉地笑起来，是笑到很夸张的那种。
笑点就是曾经做过的一些事。
现在回想起来很愚昧的事。
笑完之后，就会开始思考。
当初是为了什么才做了那些事，还有是为了谁？
当然最后会发现原来罪魁祸首是一些很不起眼的小事，不然就是那颗讨人厌的好奇心，或者就只是纯粹跟自己过不去。
想到这里，大脑就会开始罢工，不让自己继续胡思乱想。
因为如果再继续，就会想到那些丢脸到要死的事。
然后就会想要去撞墙死掉算了。
就是这样结束了没事时的胡思乱想，那永远都会觉得很可笑的过去。
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
12:18 AM
I AM BACK FOR GOOD?
Lols. I have no idea if I am actually back for good. BUT for now, I think I am good with coming back to this blog and I need to update that OUTDATED friends list.
OH MAN! I AM FEELING SO LAZY!!!
Thursday, April 23, 2009
7:07 PM
Sayonara, my dreamland. I will always love you. <3
Saturday, April 18, 2009
1:00 AM
I am really pissed right now. JUST SHUT YOUR TRAP UP!
BLOODY HELL!
I want to screw you up. Grab your neck and shake you till you die!
Stop telling me off like you are my mum. YOU'RE NOT MY MUM!
JUST GO AND DIE!
Thursday, April 16, 2009
10:31 PM
I really wonder if I can ever keep this blog alive. So I think I should write about something different today, not about office work.
4th day at the office, nearly a week and 15 more weeks to go. I am really curious what will happen next. Will my life change? Will my character change? Will my thinking change? I have lots of questions.
I have no TIME!!
Actually, I was thinking if I should change this blog skin over the weekend. Change the colours, i think. Maybe I will change the blog address too, but if I change the address, I won't tell you the new one. xD Go search for it, it's easier than you think.
LOL! I am random! I am complicated.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
8:53 PM
Remember the other manager I wrote about yesterday, who was suppose to be in the office today? He didn't come again!! He's on MC. Haiz.
Because there isn't a table for me today, they got me a seat in the 'fish tank'. That's what all the interns there call it. It is this glass area where some of the managers sits. Luckily there is only another lady called Geraldine there today. So there was only 2 of us.
I dozed off again in the morning but was freaking awake the entire afternoon caused I got to walk around and disturb people. haha! Because my supervisor wasn't in today! YEAH!!!the front desk lady 'borrowed' me for awhile and I got to play with the shredding machine!
Finally got my computer password today. Got work waiting for me tomorrow morning!! YEAH!!! Got things to do~~ Ah! I gonna go to the office a little earlier tomorrow morning to do the work, cause it dues at 11am. =D Gonna sleep early today! Actually I am quite sleepy already, but I just bathed and I want to watch CSI which shows at 10pm and ends at 11pm. Gonna sleep after the show! Sleepy...